Once something takes physical form, Change is inevitable. Look therefore beyond physics to find the constant for that is the essence of home; the safe reliable place from which you can explore and be bold and learn to except change as lessons about humanity and the world around you.
Have faith in your subconscious, if you ask it to do something for you, it will. You need only ask, go about your day as usual and a few days later the answer to your question will pop into your consciousness effortlessly as though it was already there all this time just waiting for you to ask the right question.
Being socialized into a culture is in many ways a way to force your personality and innate nature to adjust to your surroundings. A lot of beauty and creativity can be lost in this process. Figuring out who you are as an adult is often about reclaiming that lost beauty and creativity. Maybe that is why so many of us travel to foreign cultures to find ourselves, for in the process of traveling we discover that the “system of thought” we have been socialized into as children is not the only way of life worthwhile.